Well, it's happened to me.

I got invited to a baby shower. I've heard a lot of people talking on how they'd invite their friend who miscarried to a baby shower or how they'd handle it etc... Well now it's on me. Do I go, or don't go? *I* am that friend that miscarried now. *sigh*

Part of me wants to go to cheer her on. It's a friend I've known since I moved to NJ. She's been a pretty good friend for the most part. My conscience thinks I'm being selfish for not WANTING to go. But the part of me that doesn't want to go is sad (because of my loss), jealous (cuz I should be pg too), and maybe a little afraid to confront all those feelings in general. I don't want to be a downer at something that should totally be a happy event.

So I've decided not to go. I'm gonna send a nice gift with a nice long note and let that be that. I'm pretty sure she'll understand. But part of me still feels bad. It IS on my bday weekend too, so it's not like I don't have other plans... Damn my conscience!