God is putting me to the challenge...

I think I have come to the point of being overwhelmed. My head is spinning and I'm just trying to catch my breath. I'm not sure if my own issues are partly to blame, but I'm stressed over myself as well as Emily now.

Emily was diagnosed with hypertrophic tonsils. Which basically means they are really enlarged. There are four stages of tonsil enlargement and hers is at 3. They are that big. Her sleeping has been affected, she has bouts of sleep apnea as well as snoring and overall general breathing issues when laying on her back. She eats very slow, takes the tiniest bites and chews everything completely because if anything touches her tonsils, she gags or even pukes. Her tonsils are actually touching the back of her tongue - which brings on the gagging reflex for her. She has been scheduled for a tonsillectomy and partial adenoidectomy on the 21st of August. (They don't feel it's necessary to take out her adenoids completely at this point in time.) I feel so bad for her tho. This is our first major "operation" and I think it's more scary for me than her. Tho she doesn't really understand at this point in time, so...

All this sort of cuts into my own treatments and surgeries. I can't deal with myself, while being stressed over my kiddos. So I will have to postpone my own surgeries to be there for Emily during hers. I don't feel like I'm getting 'sicker' but I guess I am. The acne on my face is getting overwhelming. I've never had bad acne before - even as a teenager - so I'm still learning how to deal with it. I know I can't make it go away until we get whatever is going on in my head - out. Other than that tho, I feel fine. You would never even know I was sick. I know *I* still can't believe it.

The doc/nurses actually sent me a prescription for a CT Scan of my sinuses. I guess they found something on my MRI and need to check it out further. I'm hoping it's just scar tissue left over from my sinus surgery as a kid. Hopefully I'll know more on the 25th, when my followup with the neurosurgeon is. I just want to start getting dates written down. As much as I'm NOT looking forward to ANY surgery, I want to get this taken care of. But my kiddos come first and we'll take care of them first. Hopefully my tumor or whatever it is will just hang tight for a little while longer. . .